You never did these kind of things. Your ethics always come first, but you were now too deep into this story to back up. And you were in love.

It was stupid, hopeless, and you felt like you were sisxteen again, dealing with your first high-school crush. Truth is that you are 33 and you have been screwing around with a married man for almost two years.

Spencer Reid is, for a matter of facts, married to Maeve Donovan. He thought she was his soulmate until he met you a few years back. And you seemed like you weren't his type at all: his wife was the female version of him... while you. Well. You are like a freaking tornado. A total badass, a dark feminine kind of woman. And you completely reversed his world, making him feel things he never felt during his marriage with Maeve.

But of course, this isn't easy. Seeing each other in secret, arguing, and barely seeing each other due to his job at the FBI and his wife was something really difficult to deal with.

You knew he loved you. He stopped loving Maeve way before he even met you. But still, he didn't want to get a divorce from her. He felt sorry for his wife, because a part of him still wanted her to be his forever... maybe it was out of pity or shame for himself and his friends who adored he and Maeve together. But even after two years of hiding with you, he couldn't let himself destroy his marital life.

And you were starting to feel disappointed and sad about this. He promised you many times that he would have eventually broke things off with Maeve to finally have you for real, but he never did that. And he didn't even know if he was really able to.

You both were now in your apartment, curled up on your bed. You two just made love and now you are deep in thoughts.

He looked at the hour and he groaned, as he stood up from the bed.

"It's late. I gotta go back home." He says, as he grabs his clothes. "Maeve thinks I'm still at work."

He adds, as he puts back his pants on. Once again he was choosing her. And it destroyed you.