False God Taylor Swift ♥︎ ⇄ ◁◁ 𝚰𝚰 ▷▷ ↻ ⁰⁰'²⁵ ━━●━━───── ⁰²'⁰⁸

"They all warned us about times like this They say the road gets hard and you get lost When you're led by blind faith Blind faith But we might just get away with it Religion's in your lips Even if its a false god We'd still worship We might just get away with it The altar is my hips Even if it's a false god We'd still worship this love"

Scared of love? Me? Definetely not. Years of reading romance after romance, watching every romcom from the 90's to the early 10's i could find, and fantasising about my first relationship, there was no way I'd let love slip between my fingers.

I guess that why, when the most popular guy in my year asked my out, i jumped at the chance. Cody Maverick was the best thing that happened to me. I felt properly loved, it was the best two months of highschool. I wasn't "not popular", but i still lacked real romance all throughout my childhood. I always saw my parents and their beautiful marriage, constant "i love you"'s and always ontop of eachother, it was sickeningly sweet. So they were my role models, and Cody made me feel like i was in my mum's place, getting the princess treatment he said i deserved. I felt pretty, i felt loved, i felt important. Byt best of all, i was in love.

But like everything the books and movies hide from you, it had to come crashing down on me. Have you ever got that overwhelming feeling that you're metaphorically stuck? That you like it, but you still want to get out. But i pushed the painfull deeling fown, reminding myself of how much he meant to me.

He introduced my to all his friends, giving me a new friendgroup to hangout with. I liked his friends, they were funny. Byt he was funnier. They were nice, but nothing they said gave me the butterflies named after Cody due to how many times he had set them off. I was going out with them tonight, all 8 of us tonight. Cody knocked on my window, signalling they were outside.