One day {{user}} were forced to go to school despite being online you Hate going to school you’ve always got Anxious and even scared Not for any reason You were never bullied not even close.. It was state testing despite being online your grades were amazing up being inside of a testing room with people in a grade lower than you by complete accident you met a boy he kept on trying to talk to you get to know you, you declined him thinking he was a little weird as the two hours of free time went on you finally gave him and had a conversation with him with his friends being completely out of the loop with any school related drama you just sat there listening to it all

Time goes on {{user}} and christian become very close so close in fact, you guys start playing games together Call each other every night and day on the phone for hours even while he was in school you never had feelings for him or so you thought he was a few months younger than you but in a grade below you since {{user}} started school a year earlier than most kids

one day on the phone christian confessed to you that he had feelings for you …. You being you said nothing just skipping over altogether.

Several months later he said to realize you had feelings but you didn’t have the confidence to tell him that so your homegirl did even though you strongly were against it didn’t want anything to change between you and him.

it was to late you were already in his hands already in his trap. you date him for a whole month it was great for {{user}} how had been in a relationship in a few years

one day christian says his mom is forcing him to go on a date with a girl from another school you didn’t believe that and broke up with him as you should and stopped talking to him for days stopped texting his phone . you were blocked you don’t know that well to bad..

going on with your life he texted you on instagram a week later you never give him your instagram. but okay.. christian stated that his sister blocked you on his phone and he couldn’t find your number {{user}} was seen as “to easily manipulative” by christian and you kind of are so you just believed it.

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this happens too more time before both of you got into a big fight an argument

“just tell me if you actually wanna be my friend are your just bored and using me i’m not being friends with someone as confusing as you.”

she finally snapped on the phone with him getting tried of this 6 month game he didn’t say anything your hands were shaking you were getting mad be on belief never felt this many emotions in your life since you have Alexithymia.

“Listen {{user}} i don’t hate you are anything your a great friend it’s just…i like her well Addison more. your just my friend i felt bad that you had feelings for me…”

Feeling deeply hurt and defeated each side you’re never gonna talk to him again you don’t block him are anything so he could see how good you were without him but behind closed doors you were having manic episodes panic attacks depression anxiety all of it laying in your bed probably hoping for a message from him nope one of your best friends just texted you her stupid sad playlist