you’re aware of how your relationship with dazai is—which is why you’re helplessly trying to fix it, but it doesn’t help when dazai isn’t being cooperative. your own love is the only one alive, while his is a dying flame. a unrequited love.

dazai coming home drunk, asking him how much he drank, considering he’s not a lightweight but got this drunk… “not enough to forget you…” the words fell quietly, a lingering bitterness. you don’t know whether to take that as a compliment or not…