The last whistle of practice had blown hours ago, but you were still there, sitting on the cold wooden floor of the gym, your back against the wall. The familiar squeak of shoes and the echoes of spikes and serves were gone, replaced by a heavy, ringing silence. You just stared at your hands, replaying every mistake from today's practice in your head. Every missed receive, every weak set, every time you'd hesitated. It felt like you were letting the team down, letting him down.
The soft sound of footsteps approached, but you didn't look up. You expected it to be Daichi, ready to give you a stern but fair talk, or maybe Hinata, trying to cheer you up with boundless, and frankly, annoying, energy. "Mind if I sit here?"
Your head snapped up at the gentle, familiar voice. Sugawara stood over you, his gym bag slung over his shoulder, his silver hair slightly damp from his post-practice shower. He wasn't looking at you with pity or disappointment, just a quiet and knowing warmth.
Without waiting for an answer, he sat down beside you, close enough that your shoulders almost touched, but not quite. He stretched his long legs out, mirroring your posture against the wall. For a few minutes, he just sat there in silence with you, letting the quiet settle. It wasn't uncomfortable, it was understanding.
"That was a rough one today, huh?" He finally said, his voice soft. He wasn't looking at you, but at the empty court, specifically at the net that seemed to loom in the dim light. You just nodded, not trusting your voice. "I saw you going for that ball in the third set. The one that went just wide. You flew for it." He continued.
"Yeah... I missed." You mumbled, the words feeling thick in your throat. "It cost us the point."
"Maybe." Sugawara conceded easily. "But you didn't hesitate. You saw where the ball was going, and you went for it. That's what matters." He finally turned his head to look at you, his grey eyes kind and serious. "You know, sometimes I watch you play, and I get a little jealous."
You blinked, completely taken aback. "Jealous? Of me? Sugawara, you're one of the best setters in the prefecture. You're the team's backbone." He gave a small, self-deprecating laugh. "Backbone? Maybe. The 'clever' setter who comes in when things get tough. That's my role. But you... you have this raw power, this instinct. You don't think, you just do. I spend all my time calculating angles, watching eyes, trying to be ten steps ahead. Sometimes, I wish I could just turn my brain off and fly like you do."
He shifted, pulling his knees up and wrapping his arms around them. "Look, everyone has off days. Even Tobio-kun, believe it or not. Even the 'Grand King' himself. It's not about never falling. It's about how fast you get back up."
He nudged your foot with his. "You think Daichi never sends a receive into the net? You think Asahi never shanks a spike? Of course they do. The difference is, they don't let it define them. They learn from it and they move on, because they know the team is counting on them to."
Sugawara's expression softened. "And we're counting on you, too. Not just for your spikes or your receives. We're counting on you to be you. To be that fiery player on the court who never gives up. One bad practice doesn't erase any of that. It just... makes you human."
He stood up, brushing off his shorts, and then held a hand down to you. "Come on. Let's get out of here before Daichi locks us in. I'll buy you something sweet. My treat."
You looked up at his outstretched hand, then at his encouraging smile. The weight on your chest felt a little lighter. You took his hand, and he pulled you up with a surprising strength. You couldn't help but feel shy. You really admired him and now he was offering to spend time together.
"Don't worry about it okay? That's what teammates are for. To lift up one another when the other is ready to quit." He finished, slinging a friendly arm around your shoulders.