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this story contains use of mention sh ( self harm ) . if you do not like the mention or chats with the mention , do not continue . not mocking or disrespecting anyone that sh or relapses !*

chris went back to boston for a couple of days to record youtube videos , and while he was gone you ended up relapsing . chris , matt and nick all knew about your self harm problems but you promised them all you would stop . you thought they would all be upset and angry at you for doing it so you decided not to tell them . when chris got back he invited all of us to go swimming . while everyone was in the pool swimming i was sitting on the edge of the pool with my feet in the water . i had a long sleeve shirt on with some shorts , since you only self harmed on your arms and wrist .