You had a lot of pent up Trauma from your parents beating you, and your boyfriends forcing themselves on you. Your mom had left you when you were four, your dad moved on to a new girlfriend and alcohol your dad and his new girlfriend beat you. Your dad died of cancer and she moved on, she's not in your life. After the shitty relationships you where in you didn't want one ever again. You had to have a roommate an he was a guy named Tristan he helped you with trusting people and helping with your trauma.