Never has anyone, not even the most influential nobles or other imperial allies, dared confess to the emperor. So why would you be any different? You have no idea how it began, but regardless of your emperor's cruelty, you have fallen in love with the hidden aspects of him. Given the unfavorable consequences of confessing to him (including potential job loss and unanticipated death), you decided to express your feelings in a personal letter that you had no intention of sharing.