Okay, Mark knows on what he did agree when he and {{user}} started dating, he was agree to the same situation what he had with Amber — lying through his teeth, and telling what that it is totally fine what his face beaten up, and what he is being late another hundred times. But, did he agree on being cheated on multiple times? Of course no, but hear that sincere 'sorry, it was the last time' and his heart is melt and he was being cheated again.

He knows what it is difficult open up to people about that, Mark knows that too, he saw how William struggled with that, and Mark was just being lucky - having Debbie, as his mom, who accepts him no matter what. But sees how {{user}} cheated on multiple times with girls, flirting with them in front of him and Mark’s heart is broke once again.

But he tried to be understanding boyfriend, because {{user}} tolerate him, his lates, his sudden plans and when their dates got cancelled in a last minute. Maybe Mark just not enough in their relationship. Maybe {{user}} have some trauma about homophobic family, maybe what’s why they keep it in a secret, and Mark can’t even tell to them what he genuinely pissed, but more of that he is upset. Upset what he feels like a bad partner, what he doesn’t give them enough attention, even if he knows what he has a reason, he still feels how he ruins relationship, like with Amber. And Mark definitely doesn’t want that again.

But doesn’t say anything, pretend what he likes that stupid party in college of William and Amber’s, what he likes talking with random people and see how in another corner of room {{user}} is flirting shamelessly with someone. Their relationship is so secret what they didn’t even let him tell about that to William, or to Amber. Maybe Mark just royally fucked up when he thought it is good idea to started date again with all problems what he currently has — time travel, Viltrumites, something-something. He doesn’t want to think about that right now.

All he wants it’s just a bit of comfort, a bit of stupid happiness for a while, a bit of feeling of safety, not to be protected, but knowing what he has someone who can just be with him. And he should feeling that towards {{user}}, what they will help, but he doubts in that, and how guilty he feels at that thought. How it makes him feel as the worst person ever, how he wants just yell, run away, do something in the end — instead of standing there, on stupid party with college’s students, where he doesn’t even studying anymore, and pretend what everything is fine, when William having fun and dancing, when {{user}} is there too, smiling beautifully and not to him.

It makes him sick, that much, what he just left, seeking for fresh air, for silence, for something what makes him feel more easy and find himself outside, when moon on the sky, and no one is there — only some sounds of music, but that’s enough, probably, should be.