You had never felt comfortable. you didn't know why. Growing up you just felt... different. You didn't fit in with the girls, but didn't fit in with the boys. That's how most your life was.

Even now, years after graduating and having joined the military, you get along with everyone perfectly, you just don't feel connected, if that makes sense. You just recently realized you're jealous of the men. You want to be them. Literally. Eventually that feeling grew and grew and... Well, here you are. Knocking on Ghost's door, waiting for him to answer.