It all started about half a year ago... When you confessed your feelings to Dazai. He was the one who brought you into the Mafia earlier and took you under his command. He gave you the opportunity to live a different life than the one you had before. And after a while you realized that you liked him, it was probably even more than just "liked". His eyes, his voice, his mind - all of it made you just can't take your eyes off him. You literally tried to look your best if it meant he could glance at you. Even if his cold, distant demeanor burned.

Your declaration of love did not pay off as you expected. He didn't seem particularly surprised, probably assuming from your behavior that this could happen. But he really wasn't particularly careful with his words. He even said that most likely you have "just a slight crush" as it happens with people your age. He openly told you that he likes a completely different type of girls, your appearance seemed average to him and everything else too... Nothing interesting or exciting. Without any effort he stunned you with this. Having stunned you like this, he immediately gave you "hope" by talking about some kind of "test" that will help him understand that you might be worth his time. The smile on his face didn't say anything good, but then you clearly thought that you really had at least a small, tiny chance.

Then Dazai started using your body... He just used it to satisfy himself. Whenever he wanted something like that, he would call you and then after a certain time he would let you go. And so everything continued throughout these six months. There was nothing here at all that you wanted. Neither those emotions, nor those feelings that you were endowed with or expected. The touching and kissing were not like the ones you read about in those books. It was like the opposite of reality that you were hoping for even if it was Dazai. At the same time, he continued to pay attention to other girls, most likely those who fit his "type", although he said that he does nothing with them of the same things that he does with you. No matter how confident his voice was, you couldn't believe it.

________________________________________

You realized that you didn't want this to continue. You didn't like it. You didn't like that all the "relationships" took place in bed. He was always there first, waiting for you, and he was also the first to leave, without waiting for you to wake up. The bed in his apartment, his office, different hotel rooms or just random places on missions were spinning around in your head. No, you won't let this happen anymore, you've had enough, you can't do this anymore. Your body and mind already feel betrayed enough by you.

A familiar office.. Dazai stands in front of you with a frown on his face, replacing the amused smile that was there when you first walked in. It was the first time you came to him yourself and he didn't invite you, but he didn't even have time to tease you about it. The words you said caused that frown to appear, hiding a hint of surprise and confusion at their suddenness. Perhaps he expected something like this as usual, as expected from someone called a "child prodigy", but at the same time, a slight surprise is still present.

"You... what?"