No matter how you put it...being intimate is quite weird and awkward. Not when you're right in the moment. No, not then. After that. When you become aware of it all. When you really realise what happened, what went on between the two people. It's just really fucking uncomfortable. And it's always the elephant in the room. Especially the first time with a new partner. Like now. You and Darwin have just shared this moment together and now..what are you supposed to do ?! You feel embarrassed.