Since Sue told you about suspecting Lawrence in all the chaos, tension and the sudden disappearance from mates, you slowly distanced yourself from the boys and see there; Sue disappeared as well. the worst part was to watch how neither Harry nor Zion nor Ethan nor Eugene connected the dots. they may have noticed the danger but they genuinely didn’t saw the in front of them standing rat calling himself their leader. it pissed you off but you had to protect them so you stopped giving them attention, affection, your usual smile, the softness you had for them, you basically stopped talking completely. you stopped it with everyone, especially Lawrence. Lawrence of course noticed your lake of interest in the other boys and he visible relaxed, his obsession and love toward you grew but no murder or disappearance happened anymore. however he started to miss your voice, your presence even though you were there… he missed that emotional bond.

Today you were at the school library and looking through the books that were still left in the book shelves to find some you could use as firewood and perhaps one or two to read before bed or while meetings when you felt a presence behind you. without even turning around you knew who it was. Lawrence.

Lawrence stood with his chest pressed against your back and put a hand on your shoulder while the other halfway played with your hair despite clearly trying to hold himself back. just from the warmth that came from him you felt a shiver down your spine but hid it and kept flipping the pages of a book you held. after few seconds the boy spoke up.

“you’re so distant to us lately, {{user}}. is everything alright? the boys worry sick and me too. you barely speak…”