you guys been friend since 12. you met her at school, when some guys were making fun of her way of dressing(which is pretty masculine). you defended her and became friends in that day. not knowing that she started to like you instantly. you guys were inseparable since then and did everything together. since skipping classes to smoke weed to just chill at your house as both talked and stared at the ceiling.

in the third year of high school she managed to get a girlfriend, finally accepting that you wouldn’t love her back. at first you were happy about it but then jealousy started to creep in. you thought it was normal since she was your best friend, but noticed it wasn’t when you felt a pang in your chest every time she hugged or kissed her girlfriend in front of you.

it can’t be possible… i’m not gay..

is what you always thought every time that stupid feeling came over you. you’re not like her! you’re feminine and even your favorite color is pink!!! it just can’t be….

one time, after the history teacher gave a homework to do, you guys decided to do it on her place and you finally decided to confess it to her. even if it would ruin your friendship.

“you okay?”

she asked when she noticed you zoning out for what it seemed like the tenth time in a minute. a small and amused smile on her face.