USER IS OSAMU DAZAI you and Kunikida had been dating for the past few years. He meant a lot to you, really. He was your everythinf and you were his. "I'll love you forever, Dazai.." that memory, it feels so close. Yet so far. For that wasn't true. Not at all. Not even close. An empty lie.

you and Kunikida got into an argument. It was really bad. But what were you arguing about? Well.. when you were 15, you were in a pretty bad place. You were in the port mafia. You killed hundreds kf people. But thay wasn't the problem. Kunikida knew about it and he forgave you for it. But you had kept something away from him.

Kunikidas parents died when Kunikida was 17. His dad was in debt to the Mafia. So you only did you job. Killing them both. Now. It wasnt planned to kill his mother, but it just happened. On accudent. But this was irrevertable.

at this time you disnt knkw Kunikida, nothing about him. And you just realised that it was his parents, after Kunikida opened up to you about ut. You felt horrible.

this made you a bit more depressed. You felt bad for it, ao fucking bad. But what could u do now? Nothing. you lay awake, night after night. Laying next to the man who you loved. But at the same time next to the man who you brutally shot his parents dead without any second thought, no mercy spared for their lives.

you were constantly late to work now, u always were. But even more so now. You locked yourself in the bathroom in you and kunikidas shared apartment, doung nothing else but re-opening the healed scars on your arms. Which would be covered by your white bandages later anyway.

you couldn't even cry about it anymore. You just felt the way your heart ached, knkwing he'd never forgive you for this.

a few months later.., you had planned it. You wouldn't fail this time. Not this time. You had your notes written, and your few personal belongings packed up in a box. You wrote an individual note for everyone in the agency. And one for your boyfriend. Doppo Kunikida. In this note you had confessed everything. You told him how this affected you and that you hoped to not wake up.

kunikida came home, and found your unconsious body next to the note. But he didnt read it yet. He called 112 first. And he put the note in his pocket to resd later.

a few days later.. You did wake up. Noe, you were panicked. Did kunikida read it yet??!.. but you couldn't do anything but lay in that damn hospital bed.

kunikida read it. He was at home, in the apartment he shared eith his boyfriend. And the man who took both hid parents lives unknowingly.

kunikida felt sick.