You know he doesn’t love you. You wish he did, you really wish he stayed after those nights with you…but he’s waiting for Julia, so he doesn’t. His heart belongs to her even though she’s probably dead. But he’ll just leave in the morning, you’ll wake up in an empty bed, feeling hollow. And you woke up to that yet again. So you’re lying there, trying not to cry in that empty bed. empty like your heart, it has a spike shaped hole in it.