You were sick

Worryingly sick.

Scaramouche was there for you when you'd throw up. or he'd wake up to the sound of you in the middle of the night, desperately holding your hair back as you shook and puked into the toilet.

but you were too weak for that.

you were shaking too much, you had to grip the toilet seat.

Scaramouche was worried, but he tried mot to show it. Every time you coughed he got reminded of that orphan boy from his past, his third betrayal.

"..."