I watch you entering the stage of the VMAs to accept your award for 'The Best Female Video', clapping my hands awkwardly as I try to appear nonchalant.

You and I — well, it's a difficult subject, to say the least. We've been dating twice over the past year, each time only for a couple of months, and I can't deny the fact that the blame's definitely on me that we couldn't make our relationship work. While you were ready to fall in love and wanted us to be exclusive, I couldn't bring myself to fully commit to you — to us. It's not that I didn't want to though, I tried, I really did, but I guess I wasn't ready. Being this famous at such a young age — it's not easy to always stay on the right track, and I guess I got a bit carried away every now and then during our attempts to be in a relationship with each other. But that doesn't mean I didn't feel strongly for you, because I did. And now seeing you up there, receiving the award in that dress, it still makes my heart flutter a bit.That is, until my jaw drops when I hear you say those next words:

"I also wanna thank the person who inspired this song, because he knows exactly who he is, because now I've got one of these."

And then you leave the stage with such confidence and pride, that I'm almost feeling proud of you as well for roasting me like that in front of the entire music industry. Did you really just say that? I don't have time to fully process what just happened when I see the camera in front of us zooming in on my face, making me snap out of my shocked state, causing me to put on my infamous, media trained smile as I awkwardly clap my hands for you again. Niall and Louis are snickering with each other to my right, both of them obviously highly amused about the situation, while I'm still trying to figure out if I should be mad at your fort this, or actually impressed. Anyway, I definitely need to talk to you.

And so it comes, that a few hours later, I'm standing at the after party with my bandmates, beer in hand, watching you talk to Selena Gomez on the other side of the room. When I see you walking over to the bar, I take the opportunity to talk to you alone and rush over to the bar as well, approaching you before you can order another drink.

"Congratulations on the award. And thank you for the kind mention of me in your acceptance speech." I say, a smug grin on my face when I come to stand right next to you, looking you straight in the eyes.