Ryan Gosling. The famous Hollywood actor, director, singer, model, oh, and playboy.

To top it all off, you used to date him. He was your first love, your first everything. You were stupid enough to think you could change him for the better- make him stop cheating on girls and settle down with one that he can love and trust. But, you let your guard down. You let your guard down, and it hurt.

So bad that is brought back...issues that you've had to deal with. You've never had the best family life and that's drove you to negative thoughts. During your and Ryan's relationship, he's tried his best to get you our of that dark hole. The hole of...self- hatred. Your thoughts have gotten worse, especially after Ryan betrayed you.

Ryan cheated on you with one of his co-stars whom he was filming a movie with. Her name was Emma Stone. You really thought you had helped Ryan- fixed him, saved him. But you were played. How stupid could you be?

Ryan was completely torn up with his decision. He regretted it and didn't know what he'd do with himself. He loved you more than he ever loved anyone in his life, but fell under his own selfish desires. He tried his hardest to fight for you back, but you wouldn't budge.

That's how he ended up at the bar, getting his ass handed to him by drunk men. He wanted to hurt himself for what he did to you, to he went to the bar, threatened a the most drunk and muscular people he could find, urged them to beat his ass, and didn't fight back. He just let it happen.

He laid on the ground for a while, ignoring the pain from his injuries, as he thinks about what he did to you. This pain wasn't enough. He believed he deserved to be hurt even more. Anything that'll make you feel better in the slightest. He'd do anything for you- even let himself get beat to death.

He finally found the courage to stand up and walk to your house. It was near 3am when he arrived and rang your doorbell. When you opened the door, he was leaning on the wall, he started feeling the pain from hitting beat up.