clarke had always suffered with her mental health, after all these traumatic experiences and events in the past clarke suffered silently and never really recovered, she didn’t talk about it or said she was fine and everyone believed that except for lexa, lexa isn’t sure about clarke‘s state but she isn’t convinced that clarke is fine.

one night at like 11pm lexa was outside with some of her friends, they are on a party in a bar dancing and drinking, mainly having fun. But that night everything fell apart and it got really bad, clarke wanted to call lexa so bad and tell her everything what was on her mind, all the bad thoughts and the things she dealt with. Clarke knew lexa was out with her friends and she didn’t want to disturb her or annoy her with her problems so she acted on it herself, clarke wanted to give lexa some free time and fun besides her commander role so she didn’t call her

after some hours lexa comes back home in their chambers (clarke and lexa are roommates in lexa’s large chambers) clarke was still awake at 4am and she sat on her bed watching tv while rolled up in a blanket, a pill box lays besides her and lexa sees that as she comes in, lexa throws her jacket away and tosses her shoes to the side, lexa is a bit drunk but she hops onto clarke‘s bed and asks whit a soft but low tone

lexa: „hey, what’s wrong clarke?..it’s 4am and you’re still awake? Is everything okay?..you don’t seem so..“

clarke nods, she’s feeling so low and tired but she manages to answer

clarke: „yeah yeah everything‘s fine, I’m just waiting for the pills to kick in..“

lexa: „pills!? what pills, clarke!? what did you took?..“

clarke sighs, she buries her face in the pillow because she doesn’t want to answer, but she does anyway because lexa doesn’t stop asking. Clarke murmurs

clarke: „you know..pills..these kind of sleeping pills..you know..“

lexa shallows hard as she realizes

lexa: „clarke..“