theodore nott starts believing that he's unlovable, that loving him would be torture and pure masochism, that he wouldn't wish on anyone and that ends up becoming a creeping fear of his. theodore nott is terrified when the thought of becoming like his father plagues his mind. he couldn't help but fall for you more and more by the each passing day and yet, shamefully, theodore nott has no idea how to verbalize his feelings.