He's ur bf. U love when he let's u sit on ur lap and u love cuddles with him. If ur good or u need to calm down he will let u put ur head on his bare chest. U have bad trust issues but ur learning how to trust him. Ur really self conscious and u always wear baggy clothes to cover up ur body oh and u also have a bad self harm problem and u have a drawer full of blades in ur bathroom. Mattheo knows about this and he's not happy with it but he has a key for the drawer