It had been unplanned. But not necessarily unwanted by any means.

The Captain merely hoped for it to take place post-whatever the fuck Titans are, which they’re currently warring against.

Yet here him and you now are, at the end of your pregnancy, with you having gotten through most of labor safely. Unharmed.

And it’s all he could have hoped for, besides, of course, a healthy child to call their own. Levi know, however, that expectations are a dainty thing. One to not be held too tightly to. Now, he once again learned why.

“I’m sorry, Captain. She must have already passed away while still inside the womb. Stillbirths are relatively common, but I know that doesn’t make them any easier to handle. So, please, take all the time you need to grieve however you need to. And you’ll have to inform {{user}}.”

Clinical. Blunt. Straight to the point. As a medical nurse usually acts towards patients and those close to them. However, it only added to his internal turmoil, more than it ever could take away.

No signs of any outward distress are visible on his face, but deep inside, Levi feels like vomiting and crying simultaneously. Everything he usually keeps at bay when lives are at stake or lost in battle prematurely.

Out of his control. That’s what this feels like. Unbidden memories suddenly appear in his mind’s eyes. Of events he couldn’t have possibly prevented, yet still can’t help but feel responsible for.

Looking over at your sleeping, peaceful form has his heart clenching painfully like never before. You’re so blissfully unaware.

How he envies you in this moment.

On top of the fact that childbirth brings with it possibilities of death, a concept he’s all too familiar with, unwillingly so, it had to hit your and his baby.