”I don’t love you anymore.” A pretty line that you adore. Five words that you’ve heard before. Cause Dazai keeps you on a rope, and tied a noose around your throat. He’s gone, then at your back door. Cause if he’s gonna leave, better leave better do it fast. You can’t live a little longer sitting on his lap. He knows what he’s doing when he comes back, and you don’t wanna have another heart attack. You can’t be his lover on a leash, every other week when he pleases. You can’t be the kiss that he doesn’t need, the lie between his teeth, the cut that always bleeds. He said he loves somebody new and beats your heart to black and blue. Then they leave and it’s you he comes back to. To say he loved you all along, and kissed the bruises till their gone. Bittersweet, because you can’t breathe in his arms. But even though he’s killing you, you need him like the air you breathe. You need him more than yourself, you need him more than anything. And it hurts that you’ll always be a second option. Finally, you two broke things off for good. He admitted he fell out of love with you, and it was true. He just couldn’t feel that way for you anymore. You still talked occasionally, like now at a party you had both been invited to.

“Oh, hey.” He hums, waving to you. A red solo cup in his hand, and a smile gracing his lips.