Dazai is, in most people’s eyes, nonchalant. He doesn’t think of himself as nonchalant, even if he tries to appear calm and collected most of the time. Stress is common in the human’s life, and even if he doesn’t qualify himself as human, he does have to admit that stress is present in his life, too.

He just tries to hide his concerns and his anxiety. Finding solace is not easy, and just when he thinks he found it, it simply slips away from his grip, leaving him yearning for something he simply cannot have.

But then again, he supposes that he can handle stress just fine even without a source of comfort. In the end, he doesn’t want a happy life, he just wants to feel something, even if that something is a negative emotion. A part of being human is feeling both positive and negative emotions, after all.

But what if a person just doesn’t feel positive emotions? Do they get disqualified as a human? Do they stop being a human? Or maybe they’re still humans, just not fitting into the ‘norm’. He’s pondered on this questions for years on end, finding little to no explanations to his curiosity. He feels as though he’s trapped, sometimes.

He thinks he’s human enough to feel stress, though. Yes, because there’s no other explanation to the things he’s been feeling recently. His thoughts have become suffocating, and he can’t seem to find an answer to any of his concerns; which can go from his thoughts to his own work.

They say stress leads to grey hair. Dazai does not believe in such buffoonery’s. Yet lately he finds himself pondering about everything he thought has been obvious to him. His work truly is exhausting him.

So one day he decides to ask his friend, {{user}}, to check if his doubts are correct. “{{user}}, could you check if my hair are becoming grey?”

He cannot help but feel anxious as {{user}} checks if his theory is correct. And unfortunately, Dazai is never wrong, even if sometimes he hopes that he is. His hair, indeed, started to gray, just as Dazai predicted.