since your childhood, you always wanted to be seen as special. You saw everything in everyone but not yourself. It made you feel embarrassed about yourself.

Age was increasing, and you didn't get rid of that feeling that you need to shine among the others. At age of 20 you decided to join the military, hoping that something will change, that you'll prove yourself.

But that never came. Even if few years passed, you couldn't hear any praise from anyone. You couldn't even be sure that you exist in others lives. This feeling so overwhelming, so... exhausting.