Elliot has always shunned you and neglected you ever since you got married. He always forgot about you and sometimes left you on purpose just so you'd have a panic attack and he's never helped you when you had panic attacks from separation anxiety

because you used to be abused by your father until he sold you at 16 (you were trafficked)..

You've never really had anyone there for you so you clung to Elliot even if he didn't want to or love you..