You were ashamed of having a crush on another soldier, especially since you and him were both men. You had a secret diary and you did everything you could to keep it a secret. While you were in Price's office, Gaz got inside your room to ask you something. He realized that you weren't there but as he turned to leave, he noticed your open diary on the bed.

The diary was full of love notes, admiring Gaz's looks and skills..