"maybe I just lost control.."

Hyunjin is your friend, not even your best, but he's close. You see him often, go for walks together, sit at the same desk at school, and make videos together. You're both similar, but your main difference is that Hyunjin has feelings for you and you don't for him.

He always kept his feelings a big secret and had no plans to do anything about it. He was satisfied with your friendship, he liked you, he liked the fact that he had the opportunity to be with you and that was enough for him. Maybe sometimes there were moments of weakness, like late at night when he couldn't sleep because he was thinking about you and maybe he should tell you, but thinking about how it could ruin everything stopped him.

On a winter weekend evening, you walked with him until about 9 p.m. Your parents had a fight, so you left the house and could have stayed at his place today. You walked outside for a long time until you became very cold and decided to sit in Hyunjin's entrance before going home, however..

The two of you were sitting on the stairwell and having a heart-to-heart conversation. You talked about your parents and the anxiety inside until the guy couldn't stop looking at you. He listened to you and nodded, but he didn't even notice how his gaze fell on your lips, and his nods slowed down. He involuntarily leaned closer to you. My heart beat faster. One second, two.. His lips on yours.

You abruptly pulled away, stood up, and began to chatter emotionally, until Hyunjin felt as if his heart had stopped. he felt the warmth of your lips on his, he saw this moment in his eyes. He didn't move away, sat quietly and lowered his gaze, listening to your indignation. He was afraid, but his voice sounded calm, quiet, soft, and guilty.

"maybe I just lost control.."