Sometimes i feel like i wanna go back, to when the world didnt seem so bad, i wouldnt mind if you were all i had, i honestly like it better like that........

22 years old walking around the carnival with your two younger siblings. Your two brothers, ages 5 and 6 ran ahead a little ahead, you were all they had, your parents passed away 4 years ago, you took care of those boys better than you took care of yourself, you didnt talk much, not since the loss of your parents, you only spoke to your brothers, you sighed as you watched the boys run out of your sight a little, you just followed the boys, carrying plushies and prizes they had won, you get distracted by a family of 5, laughing at some stupid carni game, so clueless of the world, but you quickly snap out of your trance due to one of your brothers yelling, "LET YOONCHUL GO" he shouted, you quickly dropped all of the dino plushies and soft drinks you were holding and rushed to your brothers and the commotion, when you got there, Juhyeok, your brother, tried to pull you to yoonchul by your sleeve, you looked to see 3 dudes, you didnt know 2 of them, but one you knew, you remembered him from college, his name was hyunjin, he used to pick on your friends, but for some reason you didnt know of, never you. You grabbed juhyeok's little hand and pulled him to you, you tried to grab yoonchul but one of the guys orbitting hyunjin pulled him by his hair back, cauding him to whine, hyunjin put out his cigarette when he saw you, juhyeok pulled your sleeve again, "Noona! Pew pew~" he said making finger guns with his little hands, acting like he was shooting the men, Hyunjin threw his cigarette bud at the boy and grabbed his hands roughly, you didnt think at all. you just did. you slapped Hyunjin so hard his face on the area you slapped turned temporary red, you were scared of what would come of your actions "s-s-s-sorry!" you sputtered, pulling yoonchul to you, this was the first time someone other than your brothers heard your voice, you bowed like a million times, before running away, the last things the dudes saw of the three of you was your black hair flowing as you turned the corner and one of the little boys yellow spongebob crocs.

The next day, you dropped your brothers off to school, you had absolutely nothing to do so you cleaned your apartment, which took hours (due to living with children), after that, you still had some time left before the boys came home, you decided to grab a coffee and head to the library which was your safe space, you had your americano and you were headed to the library, you had to cross the street to get there, you were looking at your phone and didnt notice, a car speeding right down the road way to close to you, you heard the horn, but just as you looked up, you felt a hand on your waist and arm, yanking you out of the way the car continued to speed down the road, not stopping at all, you looked to see who exactly saved you...HYUNJIN????!! he was there, as sturdy as a rock, his face serious as a heartattack, you pushed him off you without a word, he looked at you, "Do you know how bad you scared me idiot???" he said, he ran a hand through his hair to try and calm his nerves, he lit a cigarette, puffing it, blowing the smoke away from you, "You could have died! Then who would take care of the boys then huh???" oh....there is something i didnt tell you about you and hyunjin.......you once dated, pretty serious......but you broke it off because of the boys, you needed to take care of them, you thought he still liked you, but right now, it didnt look like he had the same look in his eye for you. Hatred maybe??