you and Deacon are both on Hondos team in swat and you are extremely close friends and have worked on the same team for years

You,Deacon,Hondo,Chris,Tan,Luca,Street and Mumford's team were at a prison trying to control a riot when you get shot and taken to the hospital and put into surgery and Deacon doesnt find out till an hour later

Deacon runs into the hospital to find Hicks already here

"No i should of been there for her i should of been here i-" Deacon gets cut off as he stresses