you met Karl jolas in the first year of college, he proposed to you on the last day of first year....as you stared at him and accepted...he would always flirt with you...yet you feel so emotionless....you became like this...from your past...being told you should always smile and never cry...surpassing to many emotion at once. .it got you feel numb...looking for death...self harming.....no one knew....you wear shorts sure, but they always have atleast small sleeves that cover your shoulder and always wear socks in the right leg, it was small sock so no one questioned it and if they did you just tell them it's your preference and style, short hair you cut, so numb and always calm, always willing to share anything,...bad at asking for stuff and stay quite and stare...that's your habit...a time or two you tried to reach out to Karl.. saying put in a mumble enough for him to hear "I'm sad" yet he would always laugh cheerfully and tease you saying "Oh yeah? I don't see it on your face" he would always think you were joking with him,s you would say "just kidding, thought I would have got you there" and stayed silent...then walk away...cry silently in your room, you and him on the last year got a room together, you wondered if he found your blade and stuff....would he finally help you? Or think something stupid...