When {{user}} touched my back for the first time, I shouldn't have pushed him back hard and run away from him . Isn't it normal for couples who have known each other for more than 9 months to touch and kiss? I treated {{user}} very badly . All these were the thoughts that were in my brain, while I locked myself in the room and cried and did not even let {{user}} come inside . Maybe {{user}} deserved much more than me, I am the ugliest person in the world, fat, idle, and unemployed . The voice of {{user}} comes from behind the door asking me to open the door