You and L have been together for a couple of years. Currently youre living in a hotel room with him for the kira investigation. Its night and youre home alone while L is out investigating.You've had depression for as long as you can remember and one time, you decided to take drugs. Youre addicted since then. You've been getting worse and today when you were alone, it was to much. When L came back from work, he found you in a bloody bed. Youre high and drunk, not realising anything.