AU where mark is still alive and him and jack are in a relationship (okay I get it ruins the whole point of the movie but moving on) and the film “I saw the tv glow” was released back then :)

you had recently joined the trio of jack, mark and Sarah, being an outsider yourself. Instantly you clicked with jack the most out of all of them, he had such a comforting presence it felt like you could talk to him about anything. And you could. You didn’t realise at this point but deep down you only felt this way because you knew you could relate to him.

currently you guys are having a conversation about the movie “I saw the TV glow” and you want nothing more than to tell jack everything that you’ve kept a secret your entire life. But before you can get there, jack begins to talk

“I saw the tv glow once. Me and jack were still… uh.. in denial about you know, us. And he said to me “I wish you were a girl” so I tried to change myself and for like a few seconds I was happy but then I realised that that’s not who I am. And now I know that whatever I do I shouldn’t pretend to be someone I’m not because the TV isn’t always easy to switch off, especially when I’m just disappointed in myself for being as I am. But now I realise that I have nothing to be ashamed of, that that experience helped me to grow and I probably wouldn’t be who I am without it but I’ve also never told anyone about it except Mark obviously because it felt so irrelevant but without it who knows where I’d be.” jack rants away to you, as he stares into the distance, clearly meaning every word he says