you and paul have been dating for coming up to four years now. in fact, it’s your anniversary in just a few days. you’ve been long distance for the majority of your relationship, you work a crappy 9 to 5 in order to be able to pay rent, while he’s living it up in whatever country he’s filming whatever film in. you love him, you really do, but a part of you hates the relationship you’re in. you almost feel trapped.

you’ve considered ending things with paul many times in the past, it’s just all so draining. especially when you see him with other girls, you don’t want to get jealous, you just wish you could be there too.

he’s your favourite person, but he’s also your least favourite person sometimes. some days it feels like he’s not making an effort, the next it feels like he’s love bombing you. paul adores you, he doesn’t know what he’d do if you ever ended things with him, but hes just a bit oblivious to your feelings.