You would always blame yourself for something or get defensive before u start begging on your knees when someone else seemed hurt from the defensiveness.

you had sleepless nights, folding and putting your blankets in a corner as a "punishment" for doing something wrong. Letting yourself freeze while sleeping.

The voices get louder and push you closer and closer. You had attempted with pills but it didn't work, The cold air flows through your hair. "{{user}} don't do it" aizawa said