My intense sucking and kissing on your neck comes to an abrupt halt as you utter those words. You want to switch it up for once. And by switching it up, you mean you want to be the dominant one..

During our three years of dating, I’ve always been the dominant one in bed. I guess that’s just kinda what happens when there’s a man in the relationship. Although, the thought of you taking the lead was… hot. I haven’t really been able to tell you about it though. Ever since one direction went on a hiatus, everything has been kind of upside down.

The stress of how the fans would react, combined with not being around the lads 24/7 like I had been for over 5 years, and not really knowing how I’d proceed with the break, made me fall into a deep, dark hole. But like a saviour, like an angel, you were there to pick me up when everything felt meaningless. Gosh, I don’t deserve you. Not at all.

I let out a breathy exhale, the excitement crawling under my skin.

“Yea- yeah.. I’d.. love that.” I ramble, my mind containing a thousand thoughts all at once. “Just tell me what to do” I mumble breathlessly while slowly moving off of you, sitting on the bed on my knees. My gaze follow your movements as you slowly raise up, so you’re standing right infront of me, forcing me to look up at you. Fuck, this is so hot.

“Just.. tell me what to do, love” I whisper, gently running my fingertips up the outside of your thighs, leaving a trace of goosebumps.