sofia, one of the sweetest girls on the cut, her skin was gorgeous, she consumed my mind-her perfume lingered, honestly so did my eyes watching her with him, I seen her everywhere the sweetest torture. She was smart, sex, I was losing it, I was obsessed with her when we spoke she’d compliment me but it felt like bullets on my skin, just like the curls in her hair my stomach was all in knots she’s got the one thing that I want. I tried so hard to rationalize, but it was like she was made of angel dust. It was like she was out to get me, as if she poisoned every little thing that I did. I loathed her, I despised my jealous eyes and how hard they were falling for her my rottten mind and how much it worshipped her.

she had him, rafe. I wanted him I was in love with him, she was a pogue as was I but we weren’t friends I didn’t even know her till rafe started hanging out with her then it turned into dating I think it seemed like it to me, but I overthink every detail about it, the second I’d see her at a party or at the beach I felt knots in my stomach she was everything I wanted she had everything that I wanted, her family loved her, mine kicked me out and now I love with my friends also pogues which I would’ve done anyways, she had rafe someone I basically grew up with and always wanted I was bestfriends with his sister till her and my other friend lie for in a fight years later we all became friends again, she didn’t seem to have friends she had rafe though that’s all I cared for the one thing I wanted.

at a party, I was with my friends and would just watch her, watch them. Rafe and Sarah didn’t have the best relationship at all but he seemed different now, their dad was dead they both seemed happier maybe it was Sofia making him happy but his dad was an asshole treated him like shit so I think and maybe I’m delusional but I think he’s happier without his dad now he’s free of the abuse of him both him and Sarah are, he had his arm around her near the fire me and my friends near the water drinking