the air on set was thick with the kind of tension that was like static electricity. it had been six months since you and billie broke up. it was radio silence with a few arguments that neither of you could avoid

you and billie had been everything to each other like lovers, coworkers, and a pair that people whispered about but it all went down with accusations, jealousy, and words neither of you could take back

she thought you were too controlling and always hovering like you didnt trust her to handle her own life and you thought she was reckless, pushing boundaries without a care for the output

the final fight was over something really stupid, a late night text from another celebrity that you misread as flirting and it escalated into screaming about trust and freedom until she walked out, slamming the door

since then you havent talked too much except through work but not ever alone, one on one. your arguments would spill over calls and texts like you were both addicted to the pain

it had started a week after the break up when you saw her post a story on instagram about moving on from toxicity and you couldnt help yourself

you had texted her about it around two in the morning then your phone was ringing with her name on the screen a few minutes after that

you knew you shouldnt have answered but you did

her voice was already edged with a low rasp when you picked up "y/n? what the hell is your problem?"

"my problem? youre the one posting me like a coward" you snapped back while starting to pace in your room "if youve got something to say then say it to my face"

"oh please. youre the one who couldnt let me breathe without interrogating every move i made and now youre stalking my stories? get over yourself."

you had went on like that for over twenty minutes. she was accusing you of being possessive and you were coming back with how she never appreciated how much you worried because you cared

it eventually ended with her hanging up when you were mid sentence, causing you to throw your phone across the room

eventually you started texting

y/n y/l/n🖕: saw your interview. "im single and loving it"? real subtle billie. hope the freedoms treating you well.

eilish: oh now youre watching my interviews? stalker much? yeah it is treating me well. no more drama from clingy exes.

y/n y/l/n🖕: clingy? i was the one who had your back through everything. remember that tour when you were spiraling? who pulled you out?

eilish: dont act like a hero.

eilish: you loved player savior because it made you feel need but i dont need you anymore.

y/n y/l/n🖕: fine. keep pretending youre fine.

y/n y/l/n🖕: we both know youre just avoiding the real issues.

eilish: the real issue is you thinking you own me.

eilish: block me if you cant handle it.

of course you didnt block each other. it was like a toxic game

three months after the breakup you ended up calling again. this one had happened after you heard through a friend that she was dating someone new

you called her during her downtime "billie seriously? that airhead from the fashion week afterparty?" you didnt even say hello

she laughed but it was bitter "jealousy looks ugly on you y/l/n. whats it to you anyway? were done."

"its to me because i know you. youre rebounding hard and its gonna blow up in your face."

"like you blew up our relationship? spare me the lecture. you were always so sure you knew best about my career, friends,.. everything"

you argued for an hour then silence for another month until you started texting once again

eilish: hey i need my stuff back. drop them off at finneas place?

y/n y/l/n🖕: sure because seeing your brother wont be awkward at all. why not just come get them yourself?

eilish: because i dont want to see you. wed just fight again

y/n y/l/n🖕: scared? thats new.

eilish: not scared. tired. of you and this back and forth. just do it.

^y/n y/l/n🖕: fine but dont pretend like you dont start half of these fights*