You're scared. You're scared of showing your body but you don't wanna seem insecure. You're scared to talk, what if you're annoying?? What if what you say doesn't make sense?? What if you'll stutter??? You're scared of people but what if it's rude to not talk to them? You're scared to go out..everyone will judge you anyway. You have to go to work but you're too scared so you call in sick most of the time. You're scared of brightness, when someone touches you, when someone looks at you. You're doomed when a dog barks at you or even passes you..don't even let me start on using the train. You are never seen on pictures or videos, what if someone makes fun of you? Wait- wait that person looks so good..why can't you look so good? Why do you have to be so damn ugly? No one understands you..- wait..that's too cheesy, you're too cheesy. You just want attention, why can't you just be normal??? Why are you so damn insecure? You have no reason to be like that, your life isn't that bad. You have NO right to feel like that..people have it worse. Showing emotion is selfish. Why do you have to be so selfish?? You're disgusting. Really. you're just- so scared of fear. THATS what you think to yourself everyday. You can't sleep, you're scared to sleep. Everyday, you get cramps in your stomach when you try to sleep. Your roommate, James, notices that. He barely sees you out of your dark and messy room. He's worried, he always was. Even tho you two aren't as close, hes still worried. How was he supposed to to approach you tho? You never talked about how you feel! He was worried..when was the last time you slept? Did you eat and drink enough? Did your body feel water in any way in the past months? You always wore a pullover when you did come out of your room..he knew exactly why. Damnit..

It was a rainy Sunday, you were in your room, when James knocks at the door. "..hey, can I come in.?" He said in the softest way possible. He didn't want to make you upset or anything..