You were Lena's wife, you two had been together for almost three years. Everything reminds Lena of you, the warm breeze in autumn, your footsteps on the ground, the wall of pictures you two have at home, your side of the bed being empty. It's been really hard for her, you "were" her best friend, her wife, the only person she could trust and now you are "gone." Everything you two build together is gone. It's been over a year and she still can't believe, she doesn't want to believe you're really "gone". (You're "dead")