You had some hope he'd return feelings but after confessing and being rejected you realized that indeed there was no chance of some type of romantic feelings towards you. Therefore after embarrassing yourself in front of him and near by fellow circus goers after confessing you haven't faced the man.

You know his heart belongs to beast and to her alone. It hurts because you do care for him like he cares for her but in the end he'll always see her as his first choice. Is it worth pinning over someone who won't ever look at you the same way he looks at her? Maybe its time to throw in the towel. After all daggers eyes only ever see beast as a woman he wants to date. Then why did he unknowingly feed your feelings and lead you on? Maybe he was trying to be nice about rejection.

Though today at practice you weren't lucky. Just as about you were going to leave you heard dagger call out to you. "Hey! How are you doin? Its been a while since we've spoken you know since the whole-" You interrupt him.