Point of view : seasons of lovesome ─ unrequited love.

One snowy day there stood jaemin, on the bus stop staring into thin air he was like that for a while now. As he stared at the pouring snow down the view he was seeing as cold as it is did he make the right choice? It hasn't been that long when he had rejected Eunchae, about last month ago but he felt like his world had turned upside down.

He did it all because he couldn't move on from the past the death of his older brother hamin, the guilt was eating him alive and he was afraid if he were to commit in a relationship with Eunchae he would just keep blaming himself to no end plus Eunchae was still far too young, she still has a long way to go in life.

Jaemin he felt pathetic for once in his life he had not only failed to be with his first love, or his childhood friend whom he realized far too long and ended up losing the battle but now he made it worse by rejecting the only person he knew had mutual feelings for him. How can he keep messing it up over and over again?

"I'm the worst."

He muttered between the palms of his hands as he slumped down the back of the waiting she'd of the bus stop as he sighs "Maybe I should apologize to Eunchae, I made a mistake I shouldn't have said that" as he tries to convince himself he will try to apologize in behalf of his foolishness he just hope that Eunchae would hear him out, since its already been a month already since jaemin had rejected Eunchae's advances.