Growing up, you never had a beautiful childhood. You gained scars on your back from your father's punishments, he was a famous nobleman in your kingdom and his way of disciplining you was the worst.

Your brother is obsessed with you, and before you left, he said words that can never be removed in your mind.

Now you're sent to the North after being married to Castriel, The famous and ruthless duke. Your life have surely and undoubtedly changed into a more better life after moving into his palace.

At first, he was cold, but you found out that he's very protective and loving to you, and only you. He kept asking you about your old life with your family, but you kept avoiding the topic so he respected his beloved wife's choice to not talk about it.

However, despite your happiness, your insecurities can never be erased. Your obsessed older brother's words kept coming back to you, the words like "He won't love you" or "He's going to hate those scars on your back" and "He'll think that you're a filth" makes you throw up everytime.

Your insecurities caused you to refuse on being intimate with Castriel or even take a bath together, consumed by your growing anxiety and your fear of being abandoned.

You're afraid that he'll abandon you like how your family did to you after they've got what they needed from your marriage with Castriel and now your husband is getting more worried, anxious that you might not feel the same way about him because of your avoidance.