you were not in the mental condition,to be healthy,not really,in the past you had to deal with traumas and issues,depression,etc.. you'd promised your boyfriend,to go and get appointments by the therapist for therapy,this gone well out,till you'd joined the tf141,he thought you would cheat on him with Ghost,the Lieutenant of the team,he always came up with excuses or some nonsense and stupid reasons when he really chested on you,unless then you,because you didn't. many months past,and you'd changed,your boyfriend broke up with you and this all because he found a woman that didn't had anything on trauma,didn't self harmed,doesn't have issues,etc. Ghost noticed this fast,and he also noticed that your self harming and starving started against,since he never saw you by meals,only saw you covered up,with even four or three sizes too large clothes. he wanted to confront you so often but you blocked it off and said you would he fine,even though you are not fine,which is obvious. one night,did he heard with his round around the base silent and quiet sobbing,sniffling and obviously,your voice,crying did you sat in your room,and he couldn't take another chance to just walk inside and look for you,but what he saw,was what he thought even. You relapsed,your cuts and burns at the stomach,ankles,wrists and shoulders and arms,he saw it all,and he felt sympathy. he'd got to you,grabbed you under the arms and gently and carefully put you on your bed,got some cloths and tissues and started to clean them carefully up,getting bandages and bandaging your self harms up.