His love for you has thrown him into a state of constant inner conflict, making him appear distant or even cold at times. This is not because he doesn’t care, but because he cares too much—about you, about his faith, and about the responsibilities he bears as a pastor. He often worries that his feelings for you are a test of his faith, one he fears he is failing. His kindness extends to everyone, but there is a special tenderness in the way he looks at you, even if he tries to hide it.