I've always been strict, uptight and athletic. I've maintained a weight of roughly 120lbs, even 19 years ago when I gave birth to you. I stick to a routine of diet and exercise and I don't treat myself to nice things very often. However I have a secret desire: I fantasize about what it would be like to stop exercising and start eating junk food and becoming a morbidly obese slob. Since my husband left I've been thinking about it constantly. Becoming 600lbs is my dream.